#100 …while reading my blog, someone appears in your mind.

If someone keeps coming to your mind 
while you are reading my blogs, 
if you are testing your feelings 
on the basis of my blogs, 
YOU ARE IN LOVE!!

You're on a roll baby. 
Enjoy it while it lasts, 'cause it seldom does.

#99 …when you start looking for signs.

“Are the birds singing?” I asked aloud.

I checked out of the window. They weren’t.

I looked at my sister lying on the bed nearby, she smirked.

“Is the moon smiling?” I asked her.

After giving me a questioning look, she chose not to answer.

“How did this flower come here?” I said, pointing at a rose in my favorite vase.

“What’s wrong Di?” she asked finally getting up.

“I am looking for signs Maya. Something that will tell me as to what it was that I experienced today. At least a hint.”

“Those signs are not out there, its in here Di,” she said pointing to her heart.

“Can’t you notice you are constantly lost in someone’s thoughts, didn’t you notice your unceasing smile when you returned home today, and what about the love that is overflowing and the control which you seem to have lost over yourself.”

I had found my answer. Yes I was in love!!

#98 …when your mind can’t stop processing someone’s thoughts.

We were in Kualalampur. It was a much deserved outing for my family considering dad had been too busy for the past two years to take us out even for a weekend. After landing I realized my phone wouldn’t be working for some technical error even though I had got roaming activated. The first thought that crossed my mind was of Vivek. How will I know of his wellbeing? I hope he reaches on time tomorrow for his interview; I hope he carries all his documents, I wish he does his best there; I wish him all the happiness in the world. As we checked in the hotel I again tried calling him. Failed attempt. As we sat down to dine and ordered for Thai food, I remembered how crazy Vivek was for Thai rice and soup. His mom has gone to Cuttack. I wondered if he would get proper food to eat. Suddenly I was worried for he was prone to food poisoning on eating out. As we drove back to the Hotel, mom called out for us to see the twin towers that we were crossing. I looked at Dimpy and Monu. They already had their necks out. They found it amazing and here I was not even interested to view it, my mind still processing Vivek’s thoughts. For a moment I did wonder what was wrong with me, but then I was too tired to use my brain any more.  

#97 …when u find someone not you can live with, but someone u cannot live without.

My best friend, Raagini had just returned from U.S. She had been against my agreeing for an arranged marriage but couldn’t influence me much from there. I had got married in a jiffy and could not even give her proper time to plan her trip. So she had many questions lined up for me now that she was here – whether I loved my husband, new house, and my in-laws. I invited her home for dinner to acquaint her of my new home, new family, Harish, my husband and answer her questions herself.

“Wow you have a beautiful home,” she said admiring the décor.

“Thanks dear.”

“Whose job is it? Yours or Harish’s?”

“Harish never has time for anything except his business.”

“That’s bad. Where is he by the way?”

“He was supposed to return by now, but it seems he got struck somewhere.” I said trying to call him up.

“Hmm. So how was your first birthday after marriage? I am sure he threw a grand party.”

“Well! Not really. He had a very important meeting lined up that day.”

“Don’t you think that’s a little too much? How can you live with someone who never has time for you?” she said, genuinely concerned by now.

“Raagini relax. Don’t take things wrong. I agree he hardly gets to spend time with me, but whatever he does, its of the supreme quality. For e.g. my birthday night, he did arrange for an awesome candle light dinner, most romantic ever albeit a little late. And ultimately there’s just this one thing – I don’t how I live with him, but I SIMPLY CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT HIM now.”

The doorbell rang and Harish entered.

I think she got her answer for she hugged Harish and thanked him for taking so good care of her best friend. There were tears rolling down her eyes.

#96 … when the world seems empty without him/her.

Just after winning the volley ball match at national level, Piyush messaged –

“My victory seems empty without you.”

I hadn’t expected him to think of me there at the time 

when he had led his team to victory, 

when he was surrounded by his team which helped him achieve the most desired cup of his life, 

when the mood would be one of the greatest celebrations, 

when he was the centre of attraction for the world, 

when he could have asked for anything with the assurity of getting it,

when he had no time to think of anything…

I had long deliberated whether or not to reciprocate my feelings for him. After that message, no qualms remained. 

Hoping to double the joy, I messaged – “My world seems empty without you.”  

#95 …when you are ready to wait forever.

My cousin finally told us today to stop searching for a bride for him for he has already committed himself to someone. We had no problem with his choice. Since he was the only child of his parents, everybody was super eager to see him married. On asking him to fix a meeting with her family to finalize things fast, he revealed it would take some time before her family will agree to get her married off.

“How much time? And what’s there to wait?” everybody thought and her mom asked.

“Actually her elder sister who limps a little is still unmarried. They’ll not marry the younger sister until the elder one is married.”

“What if she never finds a suitable groom? How long are you going to wait?”

“Forever.”